Lately I feel as if Life is just passing me by.
I leave before everyone in the morning and I am the last one home at night. I am also the first one to bed at night.
I am completely stressed out about not being here for my kids. I have always tried to be a Mom first and an employee second. Now I feel as if it is the other way around. I have almost always been able to go to my kids activities at school and be with them in the evenings for their things. Now I am not able to take any time off during the day (no one can). And I will not be able to go to many of their evening activities with the late hours.
I feel as if I am missing out on a lot of things. I think of that poem that I have read so many times over the years about what matters to a child. You know the one, it will not matter the money you spend on them, it is the time you spend with them.
So, where do I go from here? I can make a list of pro's and con's. I can go on and pretend like nothing is bothering me.
I like my job for the most part, every job has ups and downs. I feel like God gave me this job and if I choose to do something different I am letting Him down. I think back to what I wrote when I started and how this seemed to be an answer to my prayers.
So what do I do?
I will pray & I will ask for prayer.