Wednesday, September 2, 2015

Missing Laurel

Some days it is still so hard for me to realize that she is gone.

She was more than just my friend.  She was my best friend, my sister, my soul-mate.

I talked to her every day about every thing.  Multiple times a day as well.

We had a never ending text conversation that we would just picked up where we left off through the day when we had a chance to answer.

We could talk about anything and everything.  We were happy for each others accomplishments and sad for our losses.

We talked each other through raising our boys and living with our husbands and  dealing with family issues.

There is still hardly a day goes by that I don't miss her.  Some days the pain of losing her is still so real and so raw.  I am quite often still brought to tears when I realize that I can't just call or text her.

Not long ago, Hubby and I saw Fast & Furious 7.  Since we have seen every one of these movies together, we too felt the loss of Paul Walker.  The end song "See You Again" made me ball like a baby.

I often listen to these words and reflect on what I have lost as well.

But in the end, when I have my wits about me and the strength to think about things clearly, I know that she is pain free.  I know that she is in peace with our Father in heaven and I will see her again soon.  What may seem like many years for me, will be just a blink of an eye for her.

I know that I will never be able to replace her, but I hope that some day I can once again have a friendship so deep and so strong with someone.


PS - For those that are new to this blog, my best friend passed away from breast cancer on Feb. 11, 2014.

Tuesday, June 23, 2015

Esther - Beth Moore

I have done several Bible studies and book studies in my life.  But I have never done one that I needed to be completely dedicated to.  I have to admit that I am good at starting things but terrible at following through and completing things.

This summer I joined an online (private fb group) Bible study.  We are doing Beth Moore's Esther.  I have never done a Beth Moore study but I did hear her speak once at Women of Faith many years ago.

We started the study on Monday and I have to say that I have already learned more in these two days than I have learned in some studies I have taken months to do.

I really enjoy that it is a small lesson every day.  But it digs deep.  I am not very knowledgeable when it comes to Biblical history but she actually makes it easy to follow.  She always refers back to other books to back up her history and view points.

There have been a few words that I had to look up (sanguine - being one of them). But I am doing this to learn so if I am expanding my vocabulary as well, then that is another plus.

One of the questions yesterday was: What are you hoping for as you begin this Bible study?

Me?  I'm hoping for a better understanding of the scriptures.  I want to fall in love with God's word.  I want to 'want' to read and study His word every day.

If you are interested in learning more about this study or joining us, please leave me a comment or drop me and email.

Here is the link to the book: Esther - It's Tough Being a Woman


Friday, June 12, 2015

Gone tomorrow

My hair finally reached enough length that I was able to cut it and donate it again.

10" braided and cut and ready to go.  I will be sending it to Pantene Beautiful lengths.

I am getting a little old to do it again.  They will only take up to 5% grey hair and I prob have that amount now.  But at least now I can color it and do different things than I could before.  

Cutting so much at once is freeing but odd at the same time.  I loved having long hair but it got to the point that I couldn't do much with it except a ponytail or bun.  It is still shoulder length so now I can do many different things with it if I wanted to.


Tuesday, June 9, 2015

Hello Again

It has been a terribly long time since I have written here.

I'm not even sure that anyone is still around.

There have been so many changes in my life that I could probably fill a months work of pages just catching up.

I would really like to get back to blogging and journaling.  I have missed it.  It used to be my safe haven where I could share my thoughts and every day mundane things and get a little feedback, but mostly, I would get relief from things that might be building up.

Hopefully in the next few weeks I can share the changes in my life - good and bad.  And get back to where I can share again.